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Waiting For Superman

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2/15/14


Today I don't want to be introspective. I want to just be superficial, which is kind of different for me, not in an arrogant way, just in a factual way. I thought it was interesting when I read an article about a guy who decided to follow Ben Franklin's schedule for a day. Ben left time for study and to deal with spiritual things. The author said he almost never did that, and it was an interesting thing for him to do. Thinking about big things like God and purpose and why we are here and doing research into those questions is something I grew up doing and something I do all the time. How can you not wonder about that? How can you just go through life and just go to work, come home, be with your someone, party sometimes and that is it. That is satisfying? Really? Don't you wonder about things as a whole? Don't you wonder why we are here or how, or do you just take science's or God's word for it and leave it at that. I guess in a way you could have more of your emotional energy available to fritter away on personal drama. That might be interesting. I know it is kind of a weight on me to wonder about my, and our purpose, to wonder what or who else is out there, and it is a huge itch I am just dying to scratch to see everything as it really is. I used to think I would just go to heaven and God would explain it all to me and I could live with that. Now I am not so sure I will ever know, and ugh, that is annoying.

But to live without that burden, to me is to live in a closet. To live in the small world of what I see now. I just need to get out into the air and breath and wonder, and make wild guesses and hope. So with that comes the burden of what I don't know, of making choices and just not knowing if they are the right ones because I can't have all the information. I can't see past death or into the new millennium, so I have to make some of my best guesses blind.

Monday, February 1, 2010

SNOW!!!






About once a year or so here in Raleigh we get snow, which is great for us. It started snowing at about 8 pm on Friday night, and when the kids and I saw it you would have thought it was Christmas. We went out immediately and ate some. Evan woke me up at 5:30 the next morning to see if he could go out in it, but mean Mommy that I am, I made him wait an hour. Everything closes down here. Seriously, we had less than 5 inches but it just sat on the street and turned from hard-packed snow, to ice and slush, to ice. Doesn't anyone salt the streets around here? If this was Wisconsin we would have been out and going the day of the snow, but here, 24 hours after the snow only the main roads were cleared from use, and we had to drive to Food Lion going 25 mph the whole way. Anyway we broke out the closest things to sleds we own (boogie boards in our case)and headed to the nearest hill. We saw people with pool toys and cardboard over there as well, since few people actually want to store sleds. Anyway, here we are.

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