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2/15/14


Today I don't want to be introspective. I want to just be superficial, which is kind of different for me, not in an arrogant way, just in a factual way. I thought it was interesting when I read an article about a guy who decided to follow Ben Franklin's schedule for a day. Ben left time for study and to deal with spiritual things. The author said he almost never did that, and it was an interesting thing for him to do. Thinking about big things like God and purpose and why we are here and doing research into those questions is something I grew up doing and something I do all the time. How can you not wonder about that? How can you just go through life and just go to work, come home, be with your someone, party sometimes and that is it. That is satisfying? Really? Don't you wonder about things as a whole? Don't you wonder why we are here or how, or do you just take science's or God's word for it and leave it at that. I guess in a way you could have more of your emotional energy available to fritter away on personal drama. That might be interesting. I know it is kind of a weight on me to wonder about my, and our purpose, to wonder what or who else is out there, and it is a huge itch I am just dying to scratch to see everything as it really is. I used to think I would just go to heaven and God would explain it all to me and I could live with that. Now I am not so sure I will ever know, and ugh, that is annoying.

But to live without that burden, to me is to live in a closet. To live in the small world of what I see now. I just need to get out into the air and breath and wonder, and make wild guesses and hope. So with that comes the burden of what I don't know, of making choices and just not knowing if they are the right ones because I can't have all the information. I can't see past death or into the new millennium, so I have to make some of my best guesses blind.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

India Fest 2010

It's about time I let everyone in on some of the things going on with the kids who are actually out of the womb in our family. This was taken at India Fest. We took the whole family and met up with our friend Shubha who at the time had recently gotten back from a trip visiting her family in India. She took all of us around the festival and explained some of the culture to us. She also took Todd to the food area and told him what to order for us to try. She is a real asset to have as we try to help Arin learn about his birth culture. After eating the food, which was very good, the baby and I needed more so we left Arin with Shubha, and ran me over to Wendy's. I was feeling really bad by then, so I was so relieved to get my salad. We all enjoyed going, and I think Arin liked being the center of attention.

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